And so the other day, I bring my camera out for the first time in months as I finally feel well enough to go out once more in search of the ultimate picture and as I hit street level (not literally, I didn’t fall over, this isn’t a tragic story) I am met with this glorious sight…the low winter sun beaming straight down onto the pavement in front of me, literally lighting up the path ahead of me, beckoning me forward and ushering me safe passage through the darkness..did I take it as a sign? Fuck yeah.
Having been housebound for so long and not been able to get further than down the road and back I feel like someone who has just got out of prison..again. The air is crisp, the colours are beautiful. I have a large unbreakable grin on my face. I can walk further and faster than I have done for months and that is nothing short of magnificent. I gaze in wonder at everything around me, like a child mesmerised by even the tiniest of things. I will never take this for granted. It is glorious.
I’ve had enough of being on the subs bench, watching life from the sidelines. I want back in. And I’m not going to stop till I am fully ensconced back into the land of the living. Yes the world is full of horror, chaos, injustice and anxiety but being part of life is a rare and beautiful privilege and you gonna spend a fuck load of time not in it so you might as well soak up as much as you can…
thanks Carolyn, and it sure has but hope I can now struggle a bit less and live a bit more..
It has been a long struggle so now you can enjoy the reward. Glad you are back on the streets!!
Thank you Richard…it’s good to be back!
Thanks Diana, much appreciated :)
Yes, I wanted to say the same as the previous comment. Very pleased to here you are out and about againand managing to enjoy life.
So glad you are out and about. I can feel the joy and appreciation you express. Keep getting better!