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The theme of this week’s photographs is isolation. Turns out it’s rubbish for humans. Who knew? Well, now, after a year of restricted living, most of us. And yet there are many people who have suffered isolation’s negative effects way before Covid turned up and I hope we now make more efforts as individuals and as a society to connect to those who are alone since we’ve all now experienced how much it impacts on your mental wellbeing.

We have all been forced to separate and withdraw from each other. Taken out of the communities we were a part of, banished to our bubbles, denied contact from those we love. It has taken a toll and even after we are all allowed to interact once more, it might take sometime for us to heal the damage that has been done. We will have to unlearn our insular/unsocial ways altho hopefully it will be like riding the proverbial bike.

We were told ‘we are all in this together’ but the opposite was true. We were pulled apart and that clearly hasn’t been that great for anyone. So when this is all done and dusted, we are going to have to put ourselves back together again…just like Humpty Dumpty. Actually, maybe not like Humpty Dumpty. I don’t think he ever got put back together again, certainly not by the kings horses…I mean, how could a horse put back together an egg? They can’t even hold things let alone use shit like superglue which is really fucking fiddly..ok, forget about Humpty, bad eggsample, where was I? Oh yeah, isolation sucks but we’re gonna have to suck it up for a little while longer..

For now, we still have to hold tight. We must show restraint. We still need to stay the fuck away from each other for a little while longer. We must not blow all the progress we have made. We must make this the last lockdown. We cannot do this again. I know we are all lockdown weary but the next couple of months are crucial. The virus has not gone, it has just subsided. And it won’t stop replicating just because we have decided we’re over it. If we do not remain vigilant at this stage we would have all suffered this shit for nothing. I seem to remember saying all this after the last one. Well, that went well didn’t it? Could we really all be so dumb that we would just make the same mistakes all over again?

If you do want genuine freedom, which is not this halfway house masked up keep your distance bullshit, but unimpeded interaction, free of worry and fear, then you gonna have to still rein it in for now. Not because they told you to but because surely you want to? Just so we can get back to what we had. Isn’t that what we are all still striving for? There can’t be anyone on Earth who is actually happy with this type of existence? I wanna see people’s faces, I want to hug my friends, I want to talk to randoms again. I wanna be open not closed. Carefree not cautious. I just wanna be a human again.

I got vaxxed this week. I got the Vauxhall Astra Seneca. All went well altho did have a full on fever for 24 hours which was a little unpleasant but felt totally fine after that. The only thing is, and not sure if anyone else has experienced this but when it’s really quiet I can hear this voice which feels like it’s coming from inside my head…and it just keeps saying over and over again..buy microsoft, buy microsoft, buy microsoft…bit weird don’t you think?

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Our worlds have been shrunk. Miniaturised for our own safety. I have never spent so much time indoors in my life. Consequently home confinement has made what’s happening on our doorsteps infinitely more interesting than usual because it doesn’t really have any competition. There is only so much screen based visual content you can watch before you brain turns to guacamole. And why bother when you have a soap opera right outside your front door? The lockdown has made me a full blown curtain twitcher which I had previously thought was purely for nosey bizzy body old women with sour puss faces…turns out we’re all curtain twitchers now.

in Hitchcock’s “Rear Window” James Stewart’s wheelchair bound existence means he starts to heavily focus on the only vista he can see and it becomes his entire world. I haven’t quite witnessed a murder (although not far off) but have seen enough high drama to be worthy of a netflix series just by peering out my window.

The internet connects us to everything that is happening all around the world which makes us forget sometimes the actual world we inhabit, the world right in front of us. But I am desperate for the real world to return in full because have come to the conclusion that the internet is categorically not a healthy place to live.

In reality you don’t need clickbait horrors to keep you engaged. Even just a person walking past can illicit a huge amount of stimuli for the brain. You can gage so much about someone in a very short space of time. The way they walk will tell you how confident they feel about themselves. The clothes they wear will indicate everything they want to project about their identity. If they walk in the road and not on the pavement it shows they are maybe fearful of getting too close to others because of the pandemic. It’s like directing your very own film with an array of characters provided and you make up the plot.

Your brain makes a million assumptions based on whatever information it can muster and then jumbles them all up with a truckload of projected opinions and creates a scenario it will then believe. We are more storytellers than objective observers and way more than we would care to acknowledge. Yet we mustn’t forget this. In an extreme situation like this lockdown the brain goes into overdrive as it has a lot less to play with. As our realities shrink our internal machinations magnify, including our worries about the outside world that we’ve not been able to engage with.

Our world’s are starting to open up again and even though we want this to happen Corona has made us more fearful of returning. But we can’t stay indoors forever so some point we’re all going to have re-engage with it. The virus doesn’t look like its ever going to truly go away so we are just gonna have to learn to live with it. This essentially means each and every individual deciding how they want to play it. You might decide you are never going to leave the house again or you may decide to say ‘fuck it’ and take whatever risks are required to get on with your life. There are a multitude of things that are harmful in everyday life and that could even potentially kill you. And you accept these risks and work around them. Otherwise you are not living at all. And living your life, rather than being scared of the threats to it, is the only way to truly live.

We can no longer rely on governmental advice because it bears no correlation to the situation so it is now up to us and our own common sense. Boris and co. are not listening to their scientific advisors whatsoever so we no longer need to listen to them. Their decisions are not based on data, if they ever really were, they are simply deciding it’s time to go back. All health experts are stating that it is way too early to lift the lockdown and it will do nothing but increase the chances of a second wave.

We all want our lives to return to normal as soon as possible but what is the point if it just makes the last two months an utter waste of time? We would have gone through all of that for nothing. The U.K government has repeatedly shown it is not putting our safety first so we must use our common sense and take the necessary precautions. If it means masking up and maintaining social distance and washing the fuck out of your hands so be it. It’s every man for himself.

Act how you see fit. Don’t be swayed but what is happening around you. Just because everybody else is acting like its all over you don’t have to. If you wish someone to keep their distance, tell them, Make it their problem, not yours. Stupidity and selfishness are spreading in this island at an even faster rate than Covid but you can protect yourself against that as well by following your own set of rules. Live by example. Be your own role model. And stay away from slogans ;)

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